Friday, January 31, 2014

Sixty One Years On - On the Occasion of My Parents' SIxty First Wedding Anniversary

Sixty One Years On - On the Occasion of My Parents' Sixty First Wedding Anniversary

Frannie Zellman




The buses have traveled this route
For more than sixty years,
And before that, as trolleys.

The Hall has morphed into
More than a dozen stores and shops,
A dentist, three restaurants,
And less describable establishments
Between them.

When we were all younger,
The corner held Alexander’s.
The movie theater –theatre then-
Claimed stairs, a stage and curtains
That rivaled the Arabian nights.
An Empire about to fall,
But how could we know?

If I go back in my more than mind’s eye
And ears,
The time before I am born,
The voices echo across the entrance
And into the wedding hall.
All kinds and levels of English, some Yiddish,
Most but not all from New York.
They argue, they laugh, they suggest,
They’ve organized, whether shops, a crowd,
 sister or fellow workers.
 And this wedding.
So many voices, annoying, dissonant,
And beloved.
They live again
As the rabbi invokes the blessing
For those who don’t necessarily believe
But have yielded up precedence
To the old ways and wishes of the old
For the night.

Tiny yet determined,
The greatgrandmother
Stands like a small but strong tree.

Soon the grandparents-who-will-be will dance.








Wednesday, January 29, 2014

The Winter Police

The Winter Police

(Or, on the demise of very warm winter coats)


You remember very warm winter coats.

They had fur or fur-like acrylic lining them

and all around the sleeves and hood.

When you put them on and zipped them up

You peered, owl-like, from them

As if channeling winter animals 

Turned bright to match the snow.

In college you trooped to class in them,

slinging them over your seats

and burrowing quite satisfactorily into them

as if you had decided to hibernate early.

In a pinch you used them as blankets

If you happened to crash

In unplanned or unfamiliar places.

If you broke up with people 

Or they broke up with you,

You derived comfort

From rubbing  against your coats

As if they were friendly and loving pets.


Then, as if from the ether 

angry anti-warmth people

started muttering behind them,

"Where does she think she is, Siberia?"

And "Didn't know polar bears lived in New Jersey."

And people started wearing 

these shiny, stretchy things 

reminiscent of ski slopes and chalets.

The message was clear:

No taking up more space even in winter.

You're only supposed to be outside to ski.

Snow and frost and cold are for kids.

But three inch heeled boots are fine.


The message was clear.


So, a question

For the winter police:

What claims, what inheres

in the shiny new space 

that our warm winter coats vacated?




You may encounter those heeled boots

sooner than you think.






 


Sunday, January 26, 2014

Watching and Waiting

A song that captures how many people on the Other Side felt when they found FatLand.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFOWG48ICjQ



Moody Blues - Watching and Waiting

Songwriters: THOMAS, RAY/HAYWARD, JUSTIN
Watching and waiting
For a friend to play with
Why have I been alone so long
Mole he is burrowing his way to the sunlight
He knows there's some there so strong

Cause here there's lot of room for doing
The thing you've always been denied
Look and gather all you want to
There's no one here to stop you trying

Soon you will see me
Cause I'll be all around you
But where I come from I can't tell
But don't be alarmed by my fields and my forests
They're here for only you to share

Cause here there's lot of room for doing
The things you've always been denied
So look and gather all you want to
There's no one here to stop you trying

Watching and waiting
For someone to understand me
I hope it won't be very long
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Friday, January 24, 2014

My Body and I: Conversation #1

Every so often I check in with my body on various issues. It is good to converse with one's body at times.

Me: So, body, what's going on?

Body:  Liked the Indian/Punjabi food today, but it wasn't as good as the first meal we ate in that restaurant.

Me: Isn't that always the way?  When they open, they're really good, but then they cut back and start economizing.

Body: I missed their tandoori chicken. Last time it was to die for. Or to live for.

Me: Body, isn't it amazing the way different people develop different tastes for things?


Body:  People would have to be crazy not to like that tandoori chicken.

Me:  Body, not everyone likes what you like. Different strokes for different folks.

Body:  I want  that tandoori chicken.

Me: Well, maybe next time we go, they'll have it again.

Body:  Why is it that everything good has to come to an end?  First, Hydrox cookies. Then the Kabab King buffet in Jackson Heights. Now, tandoori chicken in Indian Villa.

Me: You forgot the chocolate bells in Snowflake Bakery.

Body: I didn't forget. I just didn't want to be sad thinking of them.

Me:  You know the song, Body. "There'll be new dreams, maybe better dreams in plenty.."  (Joni Mitchell, The Circle Game)

Body:  Yes, that's true, sort of.  Something goes, but something new comes along.

Me:  So true, Body. Remember? You thought you wouldn't like any of the machines in the gym, but you loved the Cross Trainer.

Body:  Yeah!  I couldn't believe it. It was actually fun.

Me:  See? So remember. Newness does happen, contrary to what those depressing people say about there being nothing new under the sun. There is always something new.

Body:  I'll keep trying to remember.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Fattia

I think there should be the Great American Fat (Positive) Novel and the Great American Fat (Positive)  poem. (There should also be the Great American Fat (Positive) poetry journal, but that's a lot less likely to happen.)

Fatumen - wisdom gleaned from reading all about what fat or obese people are supposed to do/should do to lose weight, and then knowing that it is a lot of piffle.

Fatician - someone who claims to know what fat people want and need, even though s/he is not fat and does not have any fat friends.

Fatility - the ease and grace with which many fat people move. "She is so fatile!" "She moves so fatilely!"

Fatriarchy - those who, by dint of their intelligence, passion and charm and determination to bring about fat acceptance and liberation, are looked up to and revered by fat acceptance believers.

Faternity - the camaraderie that inheres at NAAFA and Abundia events.

Faternization - association with fat people. Punishable by being forcibly put in studies that explain how fat is contagious and that people who are close to them will contact the dread disease of Fatty Fatty Fatness.

Fatulity - believing that you will lose weight permanently if you diet. Believing in whatever new fad diet sneaks up the pike.

FatTorrents - place to download weird things said about fat people.

Fatma Fandi - Woman who preached that fat people should have their own country.

The Fat People - movie in which a young woman dreams about fat people and then wishes to lure them into her house.

Fatlust - lust for fat people.


Sunday, January 19, 2014

Announcements

I just recorded the poem I featured here from Fat Poets Speak 2 a few nights ago - Radiance, which is about my mom.

Announcement:  Fat Poets Speak 2: Living and Loving Fatly is now scheduled to come out in April!!

Announcement: Royalties from Fat Poets Speak: Voices of the Fat Poets' Society will continue to go to NAAFA.  Royalties from Fat Poets Speak 2: Living and Loving Fatly will go to Ragen Chastain to assist with her activist efforts on behalf of fat people everywhere.

One day I hope to figure out how to upload audio and video files here.

Friday, January 17, 2014

Impostor?

I had a dream. And considering the amount of negative comments encountered by women online these days, it is probably not a dream -or nightmare- that belongs to me alone.

I dreamt/dreamed that someone (male, I think) called me an impostor. Somehow a lot of women -professionals, artists-  often seem to think that they don't have enough knowledge or skills or even talent to be doing what they are doing, that they will be "found out" by someone who will expose them for the charlatans -charlatanesses?- they are.

So I went over my qualifications carefully. I identify as a writer - a novelist and a poet. Okay - my MA was in Creative Writing. There's the academic qualification.

And I've even written. Poems in a number of journals. Edited and contributed to two anthologies. Wrote two novels and am working on the third of this trilogy. Gave workshops.

And I am fat, so I am not lying or pretending about my personal knowledge of what I write and teach.

So how could I be an impostor?

I came to the conclusion that perhaps it goes deeper than published work or a degree or teaching. It is something internal, something that the heckler was grabbing for. It is the utter confidence and conviction that one is what one is meant to be and what one helps the world by being.

So if the heckler and I hold different opinions about what is going to improve the world, but I follow mine up by writing about what I think will improve it, for him I am an impostor? If Fat Acceptance is my goal and not his..

You see where this could go.